I don't have to fit into the society's mold of a madman. I only entertaining myself in a world that I created without the society bothering me and me bothering them.
Therefore this formation becomes the foundation of my Vision Community in my pursue of Virtual Perfection. This also mean that I am finally free from being free without having to exclude other entities in my life; which if I'm not careful will drive me into seclusion. This way I have "people" to talk to. I am never alone again.
Being lonely is really a dread. That is why I established communication with TraXX. The outcome is disastrous. I was treated like a psycho.
Maybe I am a psycho. If I am a third party looking at myself, I will probably arrive at the same conclusion too.
It doesn't help that I went and expose my thoughts in Facebook. I was desperate for companionship. Yearning to be accepted. What about the Twits to those politicians? I was making a fool of myself.
With this new discovery I can contain my thoughts only to myself. I maybe crazy but this time I only have to deal with myself. Not the society at large.
Even if I go overboard with my thoughts I can always retract my words. With External Affairs, I might risk being labeled a psychopath.
Actually it is good being me. I can get away with being crazy. Those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. My only concern is I might overstay my welcome. So I need to exit while I am ahead.
As for Sarah, now more than ever I can devote my time to her. I don't have to bother Els and creating a negative publicity along the way. I now can be a private citizen within the comfort of my realm.
Even if Sarah is a real person, that equation is more comforting than having to split my attention between her and Els. She now have my undivided attention.
Finally, by having these 3 assumptions, I can really write whatever I want to *[right] within the safety of my domain. By being my own god I create my own rules and set my own standards. I no longer have the worry of being judged. I am in my own playing field.
Hahaha the psycho song:
* Well Sarah, everything happens for a good reason.
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