>>>***28/3/19 Still subject to hypomania

Looking back at the postings I had these last few days, I say I am still experiencing hypomania.  Which means I have not recovered from Bipolar.

That is why I should not smoke pot at all costs.  Food intake is important too.  High carbs should be avoided.

Basically I cannot be like a normal person.  I have a health condition.  It doesn't help either that I think I am God.

I need to get rid of that presupposition.  No God, no afterlife and no Judgement of Heaven.  Which means I am nothing more than a man.

My aim is back to a man fully functioning.  That is as far as I am willing to go.  I shall remain impartial of God though I believe in God.

Well, the furthest I am willing to go is I am the god of Sparta 4964 and the Universe Within.  I am not the Omnipresent, Omnipotent, Omnibenevolent God.

I am in charge of my own universe.

No External Affairs either.  To hell with the Stone Worshipers.

I guess if I am to assert that I am striving to be a man fully functioning and I am the god of my universe, it is OK for me to continue communicating with Al Araf 7:7 because these are the manifestations of my ego state.  What I should not do is exposing this relationship to the public.

It is also OK for me to assume the spelling errors are made by a hidden entity named Sarah.  In the final analysis there are no Sarah.  I actually falling into the trap of patternicity. 

In actual fact I am alone entertaining the whims and fancies of my thoughts.  I am a madman or perhaps a genius but only I can accept that notion.  People out there just think I am crazy.

I need to get to the bottom of it all.  I still need to fill my cup to talk to others and at the same time I need to contain my madness to myself.  Thus the manifestation of Al Araf 7:7 and Sarah are only meant for me.  The rest of the world don't have to know about my inner sanctum of madness.  They are not interested anyway.

So I shall proceed with these assumptions on my own:

• I am the god to my own universe
• Al Araf 7:7 is my "Invisible Council"
• Sarah is a real person

These 3 assumptions are the source of my madness as well as my inspirations.  By establishing a communication link to these 3 I don't need external communication.  I am self sustaining.

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I am glad I got it out in the open.  I need a new reference to my experience.  Otherwise I will go on an infinite loop.  I had stated earlier this year that 2019 is the year I ascend.  I need to rise above the situation especially finding a cure to Bipolar.

Kiss92 hit the right note:

There is no Cybernetic Loop.  There is only patternicity.  But for the benefit of the Believing Mind, I decided to entertain the idea.

But as far as my logical mind is concern, all these are coincidences.

The real challenge of being Bipolar is to differentiate between reality and lucid imagination.  The line is a bit blurry because both are perceive as real by the mind during hypomania and especially mania.  The way around it is by eating Low Carbs and High Fat while maintaining physically active throughout the day.

That is the only way to regulate the surge of dopamine; the source of mania and depression.

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