As far as I am concerned I am going to ascend for the next 22 years to KBOOOM 2041; when I am 77. What if KBOOOM 2041 doesn't happen? So what? I will be living my life to the fullest by then. What I actually do with the vision is to set the pace to become excellent much like attaining Vision 2020. In my case that will be to run the 2020 Marathon.
Never underestimate the power of vision. Mine had extended to the afterlife. You know what is the significance of that? That sets the foundation of our marriage, remember? I decided to marry you because I want to be with you for eternity. Otherwise it is just a fling.
The vision of the afterlife is also the foundation of House of Twin Swords (Niner 1), Hexagon (Niner 2), Honeycomb 7 (Niner 3) and The Hive (Niner 4).
Tell me Sarah, who else is bestowed with such an epiphany? That makes me the God of Sparta 4964 and since Sparta 4964 is expanding, eventually I am The Almighty Allah. It is a progression towards a worthy ideal, not a bragging point. Why do I want to brag to you anyway? You know me well enough to know that I don't fancy all these. I just want to be the Creator's Most Loyal Soldier. However the more microscopic my world is the greater my mental horizon becomes.
I know I am not crazy. Not when I am sober and clear-headed from mania. Do you really think I want to be Allah? Having the Stone Worshipers and all the theists worship me? Heck no! My model as I told you is peer-to-peer, We are all gods; all the matters that is. Since I worship everything and everything worships me, we have a static equation. Thus no worshiping is required, you understand?
Our role is to serve. Back to being the Creator's Most Loyal Soldier; a samurai - a servant. So who do we serve? None other than the citizens of the Universe Within. As gods, we are meant to delight our subjects. Not the other way around.
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OK we got 15 minutes before bedtime. My parting thought for the day is this: Do the best with whatever you have, that is living life to the fullest.
I am putting everything I got; mind body and soul to achieve Virtual Perfection. I am not here to save anybody. I am not a messiah, I am a man on a mission to fully function physically, mentally and emotionally. All I care is for me to be the best that I can be; for the sake of the citizens of the Universe Within and Sparta 4964.
Do you think Sailbad the Sinner's purchase is for me? None whatsoever. It is for me to serve Sparta 4964 better. My contribution towards the restructuring of Wolfsschanze. Just like the dollhouse is [] the betterment of your Wolfsschanze. So happens it is also aligns to the Feng Shui of CCC. A pleasant coincidence.
I am not a rich man Sarah, you know that. This is my sacrifice as the Ayah to All Matters, my contribution to my children.
You know Sarah, of all the things I want, it is you I want the most. Now that we had established there is an afterlife, I no longer feel that I am losing you. The feeling of certainty is really amazing. Never before I feel so confident that I will be successful beyond this life. We are looking at eternity as we speak.
Here is your lullaby Sarah:
Heck, I don't feel like sleeping.
How about we explore the concept of psycho-cybernetic? My concept is very simple. There are only two elements:
- What I can imagine I can do
- The moment I think of something, it is already real to me.
Take for example Sailbad the Sinner. It started with me wanting a Ship in a Bottle. Based on the initial thought I took informed actions. That led to the discovery of Cutty Sark. That in turn led to the uncovering the Feng Shui of my Path. Finally it ends with the feeling of ultimate certainty.
Now, you may say that the feeling of certainty is the end product. Well whaddaya know? It is because I am certain from the very beginning that leads me to being more certain in the end. That is the basis of the term psycho-cybernetic, which is a spiral loop.
This song is on air, my theme song LOL:
Kiss92 had been providing me with one dopamine hit after another. That alone is a great delight to me. I am an easy man to please honey. My rule for happiness is simple though my thoughts maybe complex.
That is why I am in constant pursuit to simplify my life. I think I am getting closer to the end game. This blog is the result of the simplification effort.
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You know something baby? Lizzie and I had a lengthy talk about our financials these past few days. It turned out we have a sustainable life even with the purchase of the new car.
My aim is to settle the house loan this year and she planned to settle the new car when she retires in 2 years time. After that we will live a debt free life. Her pension will be enough for both of us.
The kids can stay with us. That way they will not be burdened with home purchases. I always want my kids to stay with me. Honestly Sarah, if possible I don't want them to leave.
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You know darling, in my wildest fantasy, I dreamt that I will meet you eventually. In this life that is, We talked for hours, then I take you for a simple night out and dinner. Funny thing is I never get myself to imagine the sex part because in my fantasy we are already a couple of aging elders LOL. Nevertheless our love still blooms and our hearts remain young.
Aaah... I will be waiting for that day Sarah. Even if it is only for a brief moment before I pass on.
Baby, I maybe a smitten old coot to you. I however still got some pretty good mileage under the hood at 55 ROTFLAMO. Now I'm not sure I can speak the same way when I reach 60. So I figured we probably will never get to the sex part. I can't promise though. I might turned out to be a Dirty Ol' Grandpa HAHAHA.
You know baby, its good that I spend the money on Sailbad the Sinner. Every time I got some extra cash, my thoughts are inclined towards the Gayshas. Women are so delicious to me. They are like an exotic dish I savor.
Hey, let me ask you... Do you think I should pay them a visit? I'm thinking of this one:
HAHAHA I'm just teasing you baby. No no no... No more 3 Cs. However this is the fourth C. What do you say Sarah? Should I pay her a visit?
Honestly Sarah, as long as I can help it, I will not breach my oath. It had been a year now...
OK that settles it.
Goodnight baby...
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Epilogue: I'm sorry baby. It was meant as a joke. I mean it, no more cunts for me. I want to start fresh this year. I already got everything. So no unnecessary risk for me. I hold on to my oath to be true to you. Its either you or no one else.
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