* It's a good move yeah?
It is funny come to think of it. As much as we despise *o[f] parents, we are constant[s] walking under their shadows. My grandma said my mother is a Keramat Hidup (Living Saint). She is a devout Muslim. So devout is she to God that she spend more time with God than her family.
* So I'm not the only one with parents issue it seems.
She used to earn USD8 k a month working in Saudi Arabia for 12 years, all wiped out by my younger brother and sister, both her favorite and my father's.
Upon retirement she had RM200 k. Even that was wiped out in 9 months. And yet my mother is a giver. I used to give her money. While the money was still in her grasp, she already decided for it to go to the orphans.
So end up her fate is like me. In her younger days she was so lavish. My mom never had problem with money even though she was duped in several business ventures.
And guess what, she is the one wearing the pants in the house.
I used to hate my father for that. Now look at me. As much as I hate my father, I am my father's son through and through.
brb... going out for dessert.
I decided to just drop Lizzie and Mopey at the mall. I am not into the weekend crowds. My idea of a mall stroll is Monday morning 10:00 am
My mother is an Earth Dragon (2/1/40) and she is a 7. Earth and me Wood, making me a perfect Double Dragon. Too perfect I suppose to be born to a 7 Earth Dragon. And yet she was tested to the hilt. Her mother, my grandmother was a tough matriarch figurehead.
My father is also one difficult person to deal with. Then we have my brother Rohaizad who is a pothead. So she is a very tough woman Sarah. She grew up with hard love and thus she becomes a tough nut too.
I send her this photo:
I added this comment: Varna Dragons of Bulgaria. You as the 7 Earth Dragon while I am the 4964 (4) Forever (9) Yin & (6) Yang (4) Forever Wood Dragon. So I am a Dragon's Dragon. A Double Dragon.
Then I end the message with this clip. I love Information Warfare:
We are pattern seeking creatures. My mom is very smart. She can finish reading a book in one day what took me 3 days to finish. She will connect the dots.
If I can break the mental shackle of my mom, I consider that a major win. She is pretty deep inside the rigid framework, She teaches Al Quran without understanding the meaning. That is the old school thought.
There are many of the misleading beliefs that she carries with her. For example when my uncles passed away she commissioned an uztadz (religious teacher) to read the whole Quran on behalf of the deceased because both of them didn't finish reading the book. Per reading is RM300. I don't know where she got the idea.
Even I never finish reading the Quran in Arabic but I finish reading the text and the audio book translation. Pretty repetitive stuff.
I believe if can get my mother to shine as a mother and not just a Keramat Hidup, our lives will be blessed even more. I had kissed her feet and I think that is part of the whole miracle.
I indirectly inferred to her about me being married to you and Els. So that is one big hurdle that I had passed.
W[i]ll Sarah, Els if you read this; the journey had just begun for the 3 of us. We are coming home to Sparta 4964:
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@elsDines Hi there my darling, I had it nice and easy today https://sharudinthehermit.blogspot.com/2019/05/11519-reincarnation-of-ma.html … Hang loose...
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