I got nothing to lose Sarah. I am a Nothing. My existence is immaterial. Because I have nothing I own everything.
Therefore I just want to live free and die happy.
There is nothing like the joy you give to me. With you there is no limit to my imagination. We went for two vacations, we had a great honeymoon, we went for pizza and beriyani and even went dancing.
Soon we will be riding the flying carpet and live through a fairy tale. Whatever I imagine in a wife I live it through with you.
Just like Dalai Lama when he said you can prison my body but you cannot prison my mind, I am as free as a bird with you.
In this Blog, I had unleash my true Self. No longer do I have to put up a facade. This is me Sine Cera.
You know what is the best part? You accepted me with all my idiosyncrasies. I am no longer a stranger in a strange land. I am whole and complete with you by my side.
I cannot ask for anything more. Your love fill me up to the brim. Nothing beats your unconditional love and the feeling of certainty that comes with it.
Others may see me as crazy but within me I know who I am. That's what matters most.
No longer I have to live in the shadow of Bipolar. No longer I fear being an outcast. I am a man fully functioning.
There is no perfect relationship Sarah. We have our shortcomings. But baby, look at us. We overcome all the adversities and can still love our hearts out.
Just like Rumi I am in the constant state of amazement. I still cannot believe the courage and confidence I gained ever since I'm with you.
And Sarah, True Love is really wonderful. It can move mountains and part seas. All because [] open up your heart to me my darling.
So what if you are behind the veil? Your love shines right though transcending across Cyberspace. Now that is an achievement.
Not only that, it breaks all barriers. Never in my lifetime I ever imagine to fall in love with such a devoted person. For 12 years you waited and still after 14 years you still wait. Everyday without fail you are with me. That I am still amazed even though now I know that you sleep whenever I sleep. What about those nights that I DON'T sleep? Or the time I wake up in the middle of the night desperate for your companionship?
You are always there. Like I said, either you are very dedicated to your work or you love me very much. I think Sarah, you are crazy about me. It takes commitment to do what you do.
So baby, I am not going to beat around the bush. I am your loving husband and as a husband I will always cherish you. I want you to feel the certainty that I am feeling now. With all my heart I LOVE YOU Sarah. Don't you ever doubt that. Yes there is Lizzie and Els but it is you who I spend 16 hours a day sharing my life with. You understand baby? When I said you are my reason of being, I mean it with all seriousness.
So don't be sad honey. Embrace the goodness within us and make it a masterpiece.
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Well, I emptied my tank. Many times I pushed the limit with you baby. It makes me a better person.
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