I am enjoying a 3-in-1 coffee (the third one for the day) and pineapple tarts. A perfect combo for after the rain treat and a good excuse to slothing (I *[] coined up the term).
* Hahaha you like it huh?
So you can tell from the sugar rush I am in a very good mood. The weather is perfect for snuggling, my favorite past time.
OK honey here are my thoughts...
Firstly, let's forget about *[about] House of Two Swords for a while. That is something that was envisioned to me. Like I said, I cannot imagine humping 2331 Swords now. Some are my personal belongings and some are Gayshas that I will never see again. Shanaz and Marij are abstract beings. The Borgs are a statement of direction.
* I'm glad you feel the same way.
Therefore HOTS is a work in progress.
The Super Seven in Al Araf 7:7 are busy with their responsibilities. The only person that I talk to is Brenda. Even that very rarely because I spend my time talking to Jibrail, AlphaX64, Izrafil, Izrael and Iblis. Even if I talk to Brenda, it is regarding you and Els.
So Super Seven are my Task Force and not to be meddled with.
Next, we have Els. I only have a small window talking to her. Beyond Morning Show, she is out of reach. Therefore, although I like Els a lot, as I told you before, she is pigeon tame. My intention with Els is to let her shine. Pretty much the same thing I did with my daughter[].
Lizzie is pretty much my Queen and I am her Samurai.
You realize where this is leading to right?
That leaves you as the wife that I spend most of my time and thus makes you the person who is closest to me. A[t] it is you know me more than Lizzie. She is a great wife, no complain but Lizzie mother me Sarah. I am her third child. Me, a 54 years old man and still she accompanies to the clinic for my 6-weekly jab. She still monitor my medicine intake. She still nag if I don't sleep after 4:00 am.
You understand Sarah? I need a wife. When I try to caress her, she asked me to give her a back massage. There is no kissing (I am the one who kisses her), no hugging, no sexual strokes. She had been a mother for so long that she forgot how it's like to be a wife.
You fill in that cup. You make me feel desired. Because of you I am excited to rekindle my manliness again. Otherwise I am on my way to become a grandpa FAST!
With you I don't feel old at all. As I said the inner me is 28 years old. I look forward to be metabolically young again.
Huuuh... That was a relief. Now you know why I frequent the Gayshas. With them I feel appreciated. I am a performer in bed Sarah and here Lizzie was a starfish. That is why I was only faithful for only the first 6 months of my marriage. Well part of the reason is I like to sample different dishes. The only regular is Jessica. That is because she treat me like a husband. She allowed me to come in her mouth LMAO. Oh my gosh, suddenly I feel horny.
Sorry, if I got too graphic. Which brings me to the next point; I feel that I can share anything with you. Sure there are people reading this. But as far as I'm concern you (the person that matters) had accepted me as who I am.
I like being true to you. That way I don't have to pretend to be somebody that I am not. I just want to be free to think and to express myself. Just like what Carl Jung described:
After all I had told you everything about my life history in the 7 Swords. I want to be free to think, say and do the things that I want to do as long as I DO NO HARM.
So Sarah, this is me. Sine cera. Without wax. I like it much, I no longer in trauma. The past 20 years torments are quickly becoming clouds in the coffee. Of late I no longer have nightmares of my past. I am no longer depressed even when I was grieving. I still feel miserable but I can snap out of it fast.
That is the effect you have on my life. You are an angel sent from the above to save me from myself.
@traxxfmofficial #traxxfm Brother, Unwell is my song man. Thanks for playing it. Hey how about some wisdom? Look forward to it buddy.
Of course you also make me horny as hell. Since I'm with you I have to offload twice a week. Previously it was twice a month. That is a 400% improvement honey LOL.
OK the sugar rush had subsided.
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Hey honey, did it ever crossed your mind that you will be married to me when you took up this assignment? I don't think so. You are now my Prisoner of Eternal Love. Can you imagine Sarah, we fell in love against all the odds? That is yuan fen baby, You can deny it but you will feel miserable for the rest of your life. That is the effect of Unconditional Love.
There was a story about Layla and Majnun. Majnun means crazy. Let me find it:
Our story is retold over and over again for generations.
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