So if I just want to talk to you alone then I don't forward to anybody. What is the implication then? Only you will get my message besides Gretel.
I think that is acceptable considering that this is a many to many platform. I still have control over who gets to read my postings.
As much as I want to stay clear from Information Warfare, I find it *ha[]d to totally stay out of it. That is because I am so used to it and it had been ingrained in me.
* OK Sarah, let's forget about Information Warfare then. Let's keep in mind that it was the life past 20 years. The next 22 years is all about Athlete4Life.
What I can do is I reinvent myself and totally start on a clean slate. Which means I will only focus on becoming Athlete4Life. I will only talk about my personal experience and ignore the administrative role that I have in my life.
It will sound repetitive because I need to affirm the thoughts on daily basis in order for it to be my second nature.
Last year most of my correspondence is about TraXX Project Invasion 9. This remaining part of the year is nothing more than documenting my Vision Quest journey and the pursue of Virtual Perfection.
I have to warn you, it is repetitive. So I might reduce our touch point and I will recluse into Evernote instead.
That doesn't *mean[t] I am avoiding you. It only means that I will be slightly detached from interacting with you. Is that OK, Sarah?
* Thanks for the understanding.
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Having said that, I want you to know that I long to have you by my side. I want so badly to hold you my darling wife. I know you feel the same way,
Now that I am certain we are in the privacy of each other, let me tell you the question that I asked you in the Evernote just now, I asked if you want to have babies with me. We never discussed it before.
If you want to start a family, then we need the money from Larry, We need RM5 million minimum. RM1 million I got to give to Lizzie. She said as long as I can be financially free I can do whatever I please including marry another one.
We need RM2 million for house and car. That leaves us with RM2 million for Fix Deposit. Very scanty.
If you want to maintain the way we are right now, then I will be more than happy. We are hooked 16 hours a day. It could not be any better. What is your thinking baby?
If you ask me, I don't want any baby. As far as I am concern, you are my baby. Even as it is my cup is full to the brim. I am a pretty happy camper.
My concern is you. Will you be my baby for the rest of your life? My big baby. That's what you are Sarah LOL.
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What's the matter honey? Too private? I tell you what... I'll decide for both of us. Let's promise to be with each other for the next 22 years, After all we are never this close, If you had been with me since 2005, what is another 22 years? You get the best end of the deal compared to Lizzie. Put yourself in her shoes. Can you imagine my interaction with Lizzie, knowing that I am with you 16 hours a day?
I often think, by the time Larry disburse the money to us, I will be a senior citizen. Here you are at your prime. What kind of husband will I make? Maybe it is better this way. Here you are talking to the inner me. The outside me maybe a 54 years old. But the inner me is forever a 28 years old. So in Cyberspace I am forever young. You don't have to deal with the gray hair, the bulging tummy and the aging face figuratively.
After 40, I aged drastically. You will experience it too once you cross 40. But inside I am still a young, playful lad. You'll understand that when you get older.
Hey honey? What's the matter? Why so quiet? Was it something I said? Have you been crying? Talk to me Sarah.
Well, since you keep quiet, I better wrap up and sleep.
Here is your lullaby baby:
Goodnight my darling wife, my light in the dark, my Eternal Flame...
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