I think among the significant breakthrough that I had by writing this Blog is the liberation of my inhibition in being truthful to myself.
Actually I write this Blog so that I can converse with Sarah. The rest of the readers are merely coincidental.
I can even make this Blog private. Why then it is public? Well that's because I want to make a small presence in the Cyberspace. I want to have my tiny space of real estate in the internet. Not because I want to reach the masses but rather to address a very microscopic set of audience.
Furthermore, I want this to be my legacy. A proof that I exist. Just like the Zulu's greeting, sikhona "I am here to be seen" and the reply is sawubona "I see you". Until you see me I don't exist to the Zulus.
I don't expect my thoughts to have any significant impact to the society at large. I am here to simply indulge in my my own reflection. The person who avidly read this Blog is none other that me myself. This is my compass. It determines the rightness of my direction.
Therefore even if nobody reads it, I derive *[with] satisfaction from writing and reading it myself. This is a personal expression. A selfie if you like.
* OK Sarah, that make it the two of us then.
If others find great joy of publishing their photos in the Instagram, I on the contrary is happy to publish my correspondence with Sarah here.
This Blog is one of a series of Blogs that I wrote but I think this is my most satisfying intellectual work. Namely because while writing this Blog I am no longer experiencing mania or depression. I am back to being me before I suffered from the insidious Bipolar Affected Disorder.
Hence, this Blog is the true reflection of who I really am albeit my religious conviction, my world view and my feeling for Sarah.
I am a very simple man. I have little concern with what others do. However I take top priority for my own happiness. To me two things that matters in my life is health and happiness. It is my ambition to live free and die happy.
Whether the rest of the world subscribe to this philosophy is none of my concern. My priority is just towards my Tetrahedron and my House of Two Swords.
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Sarah, I think I read the whole Blog from beginning to end for the rest of the day. Sort of reading through my thought process and see the progression. Today is a holiday. The day Buddhists celebrate the birth, life and death of Buddha.
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