I took the opportunity to read back my emails to you the past one year. No doubt I was struggling with Bipolar at that time but the thoughts I have about you is consistent. Here is what I wrote on your birthday:
Honey,
Today is indeed a special day. Did you notice the 11.11 sales going around town? They are celebrating the day you were born baby!
I had a Nasi Ayam Kukus at Hayaki for RM1.10. This was my before meal prayer:
Dear Lord,
Make this the brightest day for my darling Els who is super smart, cheerful and funny;
May she be blessed with a happening life globe trotting all the exotic places;
May she continues to be my favorite DJ with her antics and doting giggles;
Lastly may she lives life to the fullest without regret or remorse until the day she transcends.
I love you baby. Not in a sexual kind of way but as kindred spirits.
You bring joy to my heart.
This is the first email I sent you on 7/7/18. At that time I already consider you as my wife. Maybe you didn't notice:
Hi there baby,
Welcome to my life. I have to tell you that I fell in love with you the very moment I met you. I mean, you are different, You are a ball of energy and you don't mind to speak your mind out.
As for me, I'm a cracked egg. I suffered from Bipolar Affected Disorder 20 years ago. Because of that I lost everything; my business, my friends and later my faith in society.
I had been living in isolation since 2009 when I lost my consulting job with the government due to my illness. You restored my faith towards the outside world.
You are nonjudgmental and you have a big heart. I always look forward to be with you. Unfortunately, morning is not my thing. I only wake up in the mornings just to listen to you.
Other than that I live in 83, BU 2/2 Bandar Utama, PJ. Right behind AEON.. Google Map it. I have two daughters, Puteri Balqis 27 and Puteri Sarah 19. My wife is a physics teacher.
You are an excellent DJ and you understand radio cryptic. That makes you my darling. I am an information warfare expert both offense and defense. So I hope you understand where I'm coming from when I locked myself to TraXX.fm.
Honey, do not think dishonestly about me. I am a very open guy when comes to expressing myself. You will never find any bad bone in me except for my bipolar.
So I hope that clears the air my tetrahedron. Do Whatsapp me at:
0 1964 33 888
I am 1964 Wood Dragon
Don't you see Els? From the very beginning I love you for eternity. Therefore whatever I am expressing in my recent emails (check the last 4) is an honest to goodness feeling I have towards you.
Take care baby,
SJ
12/5/18
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@elsDines Hi darling, I was just reminiscing about you the whole morning https://sharudinthehermit.blogspot.com/2019/05/12519-reminiscing-1-year-with-els-dines.html …
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