Well, it's not that easy honey. It takes money. At the same time I am not sexually attracted to her. She is just a baby although she is 27.
I like it this way. No money no honey. Hence I still enjoy her company but I don't have to get into the fluid exchange part.
I dunno, having sex with her is like having sex with a high school kid.
Why do you think I treat her like a little girl? She reminded me of Mopey even though she is the same age as Princess.
She is a baby Sarah.
You look at Princess and you will understand. My daughter is so mature. I cannot win an argument with her. She was a school debater. So instead of making the mistake my father made on me. I normally bite my tongue and let her win.
Princess is a very rational person. Els is very emotional. She can be very happy and the next instance she can be very sad.
True, with Els it is a paternal love. I am also her raving fan. However if I am financially secure, I will propose to her. Only if I marry you too. Otherwise our current arrangement is good enough.
For one thing, Els is a jet setter, I am not. Els is a foodie, I am into Voluntary Simplicity.
Therefore in terms of compatibility, you and I are a perfect match. 20 years ago I might marry her without batting an eye.
Nowadays, I have a different need. I need somebody I can talk to. You notice my correspondence to Els is towards boosting her confidence and morale.
I don't have to do that with you because you are a mature woman. You are rational. You think before you act. Els is impulsive.
So stop being a matchmaker. You want to be a matchmaker, you marry me. Then you can be her housemate.
I don't think I alone can handle Els LOL.
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You have to understand Sarah. I am a loner. Most of the time I am immersed in my own thoughts. I don't talk fast and I don't talk much. Much like the way I write. So most of the time I am a listener. Even as I write I am actually listening, in this case to the songs.
In NLP, I am known as a Visual Kinesthetic. That is why I have a high sensory acuity.
Before you came along, most of the time I talk to myself. That is because I cannot find that many people who have the depth to joust with me on the topics I talk about.
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Sarah, let's be realistic. We are not going to get a single cent from Larry Page. It was an effort. May not be my best effort but it is still an execution.
Why not we accept the worst possible scenario and see things as it is? We leave a small window to chance but as it is this is our life as husband and wife.
I am OK with it, honestly. You already complete me. My cup is full to the brim.
Yes occasionally you have to put up with my antics. But as a whole I just want to stay connected to you. There is no malice intended.
Maybe one day you may get tired of me. Until then say you stay my darling.
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Time to sleep.
Here is your lullaby:
Goodnight Sarah. I love you so much.
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