So let me cherish you with all the wonderful thoughts from the poems of Rumi. What else can a person in limerence do other than to dream of the impossible?
“The minute I heard my first love story,
I started looking for you, not knowing
how blind that was.
Lovers don't finally meet somewhere.
They're in each other all along.”
“Yesterday I was clever, so I wanted to change the world. Today I am wise, so I am changing myself.”
“Forget safety.
Live where you fear to live.
Destroy your reputation.
Be notorious.”
“Knock, And He'll open the door
Vanish, And He'll make you shine like the sun
Fall, And He'll raise you to the heavens
Become nothing, And He'll turn you into everything.”
“Sell your cleverness and buy bewilderment.”
“In your light I learn how to love. In your beauty, how to make poems. You dance inside my chest where no-one sees you, but sometimes I do, and that sight becomes this art.”
“Lovers don't finally meet somewhere. They're in each other all along.”
“Let yourself be drawn by the stronger pull of that which you truly love.”
“I want to sing like the birds sing, not worrying about who hears or what they think.”
“There is a candle in your heart, ready to be kindled.
There is a void in your soul, ready to be filled.
You feel it, don't you?”
Gosh, I can't go on. Suddenly I feel very sad.
I want to be with you Sarah and yet you are so far away from me.
You know Sarah, this relationship of ours is like walking on a tightrope. On one hand it was joy and happiness. On the other hand it is frustration and despair.
Brb... Dinner...
I am trying very hard to maintain balance;
So that I can maintain sanity;
Alas, inside me I am screaming;
But nobody hears me suffering in agony.
What am I doing Sarah?
I am tossing and turning in turmoil;
Like a traveler in the barren desert sand
I am so thirsty but no drink can quench my thirst
I don't know Sarah, I really don't ;
You are my elixir and you are my poison;
Here I am yearning to be with you;
And yet that could mean I have to wait for eternity.
This is pretty intense Sarah. I need to chill...
Let me Niten Ichi:
Thinking of you... LOL
Different people respond differently to stress. In my case, I use humor when I am stressed. That is my coping mechanism. Actually I am pretty sad right now.
So with me there is happy humor and there is sad humor. This is my sad humor:
Actually without the intimacy, we are doing fine. But as I said, I am a kinesthetic person. So I certainly miss the touchy feely part.
However, I hope this is just a phase. Hopefully the feeling will pass.
You now, it did cross my mind to get stoned today. Sort of an escapism from all these turmoils. Then I told myself, no, it's not worth it. I need to maintain sanity to be in control of my emotions.
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Why are you so quiet darling?
What are you thinking?
Are you happy? Are you sad? Tell me baby.
Well... I am not grieving but I am not feeling on top of the world either. It is this nagging feeling that I want to hold you tight. I want to smell the scent of your hair. To fold my arms around you.
Dammit, I miss that Sarah. Otherwise our relationship is fine.
Maybe I am asking *[] too much huh? I am getting greedy. I want you all by myself.
* I know that baby. I am just voicing my discontent.
Hey, forget about the things we cannot have. Let's expand on things we ALREADY have. What will that be? Well, we can go to the movies.
Do you like that honey? Let's watch this when it is released:
Let's make believe. That's how I read story books and watch movies. For that instance I believe in the whole thing. I'll be Aladdin and you be the Princess. Unless instead of Aladdin you want me to be Admiral General Aladeen. Which is it gonna be? Aladdin or Aladeen?
HAHAHA I never get enough of this movie baby.
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Brb... Going out to buy water.
Later baby.
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