13/5/19 ###The Dark Cloud Looming

Suddenly I feel melancholic.  There is a slight sense of sadness and I had the urge to smoke cigarette.  The depression is back.  My mind is rebelling against the run I plan to do today.  I decided to have an anchovy bun.

If it is the depression I am dealing with right now, then this the first one this year.  It could be because I eat too much sugar last night.

I think I just walk today.  What do you think Sarah?

I really don't feel like it.  I think I read back Wandering Sufi, Principle of Nothingness and Being God 2019 today.  Hopefully I can snap myself out of the rut.

Sharudin Jamal‏ @sharudinjamal 3m3 minutes ago

@elsDines Baby I miss you much. I slept at 11.00 pm last night so that I can be with you this morning. What a disappointment. Because of that I cancel my run and went for a 1 boil egg, beef rendang, clam sambal and anchovy sambal nasi lemak instead, So stressfully ravenous.

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I tried to maintain my concentration reading the Wandering Sufi, boy do I feel sleepy...

The good thing is there is a flow in the thoughts.  I feel like reading an eBook.

Managed to read a few pages of Fit2Fat2Fit.

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