I straight away head to the PC as soon I completed my household task at hand. What can I say? I am attracted to you *li[ght] a bug attracted to the light.
* Oh honey, my heart just SOARS!
Anyway baby, tonight is Saturday night. Let's go dancing shall we?
You like that? Let me see. Let start with this:
Ah yes, you are getting ready to go out. You get dressed and we are ready to enjoy the night...
1.0
The smell of your perfume lingers. You smell so fresh. Just like the fresh cut grass in spring. You wear light makeup with minimal accessories. You look very elegant. As if you just stepped out of a magazine. Tonight you wear your favorite red dress...
2.0
Never have I seen such beauty. I was captivated by your look. You are simple yet elegant. Your bright eyes sparkle like the constellation stars. We start dancing to this slow number. Your body sways like the palm leaves in the evening breeze.
3.0
Then the music slowly picks ups. The next song is a little upbeat. You know this song well and you loosen yourself to the rhythm:
4.0
The pace gets more upbeat. You are completely immersed in the surrounding. You move is a trance-like motion. Totally absorbed in the music. Completely in sync with the environment:
Hey Sarah, I imagine you are dancing your heart out to this song LOL
5.0
As the night passed the music gets more alluring. You love this song. I know you Sarah. So dance you heart out baby:
6.0
Of course the dance will not be complete without this song:
7.0
Hey, I can't just let you have the fun all by yourself can I? So I got to intervene with this song:
8.0
Of course I am old school hahaha So naturally my songs are prehistoric:
Hey baby, you like this?
9.0
Of course a dance is not a dance without a Niten Ichi. So here it is baby...
10.0
Then the music slows down. This is my perfect slow number with you...
11.0
We end our soiree with this song while we renew our commitment as husband wife...
Now that is a satisfaction money cannot buy honey. I am completely intoxicated with your love.
Hey baby, should I sleep at 12:00 am or you still want me to ramble?
Aladdin or Aladeen?
Oh darn... You no fun. What's the matter baby? You know you can talk to me.
You know baby... You are so intoxicating. I don't need to smoke pot or get drunk to be high. All I need to do is think about you and I am in a state of bliss.
So let me cherish you with all the wonderful thoughts from the poems of Rumi. What else can a person in limerence do other than to dream of the impossible?
“The minute I heard my first love story, I started looking for you, not knowing how blind that was. Lovers don't finally meet somewhere. They're in each other all along.” “Yesterday I was clever, so I wanted to change the world. Today I am wise, so I am changing myself.” “Forget safety. Live where you fear to live. Destroy your reputation. Be notorious.” “Knock, And He'll open the door Vanish, And He'll make you shine like the sun Fall, And He'll raise you to the heavens Become nothing, And He'll turn you into everything.” “Sell your cleverness and buy bewilderment.” “In your light I learn how to love. In your beauty, how to make poems. You dance inside my chest where no-one sees you, but sometimes I do, and that sight becomes this art.” “Lovers don't finally meet somewhere. They're in each other all along.” “Let yourself be drawn by the stronger pull of that which you truly love.” “I want to sing like the birds sing, not worrying about who hears or what they think.” “There is a candle in your heart, ready to be kindled. There is a void in your soul, ready to be filled. You feel it, don't you?” Gosh, I can't go on. Suddenly I feel very sad. I want to be with you Sarah and yet you are so far away from me.
You know Sarah, this relationship of ours is like walking on a tightrope. On one hand it was joy and happiness. On the other hand it is frustration and despair.
Brb... Dinner...
I am trying very hard to maintain balance;
So that I can maintain sanity;
Alas, inside me I am screaming;
But nobody hears me suffering in agony.
What am I doing Sarah?
I am tossing and turning in turmoil;
Like a traveler in the barren desert sand
I am so thirsty but no drink can quench my thirst
I don't know Sarah, I really don't ;
You are my elixir and you are my poison;
Here I am yearning to be with you;
And yet that could mean I have to wait for eternity.
This is pretty intense Sarah. I need to chill...
Let me Niten Ichi:
Thinking of you... LOL
Different people respond differently to stress. In my case, I use humor when I am stressed. That is my coping mechanism. Actually I am pretty sad right now.
So with me there is happy humor and there is sad humor. This is my sad humor:
Actually without the intimacy, we are doing fine. But as I said, I am a kinesthetic person. So I certainly miss the touchy feely part.
However, I hope this is just a phase. Hopefully the feeling will pass.
You now, it did cross my mind to get stoned today. Sort of an escapism from all these turmoils. Then I told myself, no, it's not worth it. I need to maintain sanity to be in control of my emotions.
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Why are you so quiet darling?
What are you thinking?
Are you happy? Are you sad? Tell me baby.
Well... I am not grieving but I am not feeling on top of the world either. It is this nagging feeling that I want to hold you tight. I want to smell the scent of your hair. To fold my arms around you.
Dammit, I miss that Sarah. Otherwise our relationship is fine.
Maybe I am asking *[] too much huh? I am getting greedy. I want you all by myself.
* I know that baby. I am just voicing my discontent.
Hey, forget about the things we cannot have. Let's expand on things we ALREADY have. What will that be? Well, we can go to the movies.
Do you like that honey? Let's watch this when it is released:
Let's make believe. That's how I read story books and watch movies. For that instance I believe in the whole thing. I'll be Aladdin and you be the Princess. Unless instead of Aladdin you want me to be Admiral General Aladeen. Which is it gonna be? Aladdin or Aladeen?
Next, lift your arm and point forward in a straight line
Your arm should be 90 degrees perpendicular to your body, get it?
I assume it is your right arm.
Now close your eyes
Next slowly rotate you upper body so that your arm turns to the right side of you body until you cannot move any further.
Open your eyes.
Take note where you finger is pointing.
Do it now
OK at ease.
Next close your eyes and IMAGINE you do the same exercise but this time IMAGINE you finger is 10% further than where it actually landed just now. Just imagine...
This is the last part.
Stand straight
Lift your arm and point forward in a straight line
Arm perpendicular
Now close your eyes and rotate your arm to the right until it cannot go any further
OK baby open your eyes.
Notice where the finger is pointing.
Is it nearer or further from the starting point compared to the first one?
What did you find out?
It is further isn't it? What is the difference? The second attempt you visualized a further distance. Thus your body responded accordingly.
Conclusion: What the mind can perceive the body can achieve. That is your lesson in psycho-cybernetic for today.
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Therefore it is important that you guard your mind against any "weed" because whatever you imagine is real to you. The mind cannot differentiate between what is real and what is imagined. The more vivid your imagination the more real it is to the mind.
For example if right now I ask you to imagine in you right hand, you have a nice big yellow lemon. Next I want you to get a knife and cut the lemon into half. As you cut it, the juice squirts out of the lemon. You take half of the lemon and you squeeze it on your palm. Next you hold up you palm to your mouth and sips the lemon juice. The sourness pierces you taste buds.
Now, do you salivate? Where's the lemon? It is only an imagination. Yet your body responded as if it is real. You agree?
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Once you realize this concept, you can basically use it to your advantage.
What I can imagine I can do
In my case, I can be in the past, present and future just by projecting my thoughts. I can actually time travel. Anyway we can only time travel when there is no gravity and no mass. Therefore you do it by invoking your consciousness.
This idea was mooted by Lobsang Rampha. He called it Astral Projection.
There are others who can do it too. They follow the teaching of Sant Mat. Let me wiki that:
Sant Mat was a spiritual movement in the Indian subcontinent in the 13th century CE. The name literally means "teachings of sants", i.e. mystic saints. By association and seeking truth by following sants and their teachings, a movement was formed. Theologically, the teachings are distinguished by inward, loving devotion by the individual soul (atma) to the Divine Principal God (Parmatma). Socially, an egalitarian understanding stands separate from qualitative distinctions of the Hindu caste system, and to those between Hindus and Muslims.[1]
In Sant Mat, through the guidance of the masters, you travel though this landscape towards a sanctuary. This is done through meditation. I read several books about the teaching of the masters but I think this one written by Julian Johnson is the best:
I finally opted out of Sant Mat teaching because I am not into meditation. Also because like many spiritual movements, here too we have zealots who were too eager to covert you to their beliefs. I was not ready to move from the frying fan into the fire LOL.
Nevertheless here we have proofs that there are people who can transcend into a different reality just by training their minds to detach from their physical existence.
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What am I talking about Sarah? I should be romancing you instead.
Are you OK baby?
Not OK huh?
You are too passionate Sarah. You love me too much.
Hey baby, what if we diffuse some of that loving feeling. Let's try this:
I planned to wake up late today. So no alarm. I didn't expect to offshoot until 1:30 pm!
Lizzie and the kids are going for *[for] their prefestival shopping. I decided to just wear what I bought the years before. It doesn't make sense to buy one every year and only wear the clothes once a year.
* As much as possible I will avoid prefestival shopping.
Let's look back at Master Jedi's advice:
Just like sipping a cup of coffee.. everyone has their own unique taste of coffee.. no two-tastes are identical.. the one who walks before you and sip the coffee will tell you the coffee story..but it is still his coffee not yours although you can learn something about coffee from him before tasting it yourself.. your own coffee..
What he is saying here is everybody is responsible for his own line. Each person's experience is uniquely his own. So it is not up to us to judge anybody.
The Stone Worshipers maybe wrong for prostrating to the stone as mentioned here:
(3) Narrated 'Abis bin Rabia: 'Umar came near the blackstone and kissed it and said "No doubt, I know that you are a stone and can neither benefit anyone nor harm anyone. Had I not seen Allah's Apostle kissing you I would not have kissed you." (Book #26, Hadith #667)
The belief is ingrained too deep in their belief system. To the point that they will reject anything that will shake their beliefs even if it is as glaring as this:
(8) Narrated 'Abdullah bin Abi Aufa: Allah's Apostle said, "Know that Paradise is under the shades of swords." (Book #52, Hadith #73)
Even for Master Jedi, he cannot escape the social pressure to conform:
I am in full agreement with you, especially (quoting your text 👇):- "What you see is not real. Those who know will not tell. They pick and choose what they want to serve their cause. " They may want very much to tell, but the tongue and ears aren't capable of telling and hearing..hence the Silence of the Truth..
To me this is the most sickening evidence of Conformity Bias. So rampant is the phenomenon that even when I presented this hadith to them, they said that it means the prophet as[] these people not to rape instead of (based on the content and context of the hadith) to go ahead and rape but to not squirt outside but to do it inside. Read it carefully:
(1) Narrated Ibn Muhairiz: I saw Abu Said and asked him about coitusinterruptus. Abu Said said, "We went with Allah's Apostle, in the Ghazwa of Barli Al-Mustaliq and we captured some of the 'Arabs as captives, and the long separation from our wives was pressing us hard and we wanted to practice coitusinterruptus. We asked Allah's Apostle (whether it was permissible). He said, "It is better for you not to do so. No soul, (that which Allah has) destined to exist, up to the Day of Resurrection, but will definitely come, into existence."(Book #46, Hadith #718)
(2) Narrated Ibn Muhairiz: I entered the Mosque and saw Abu Said Al-Khudri and sat beside him and asked him about Al-Azl (i.e. coitusinterruptus). Abu Said said, "We went out with Allah's Apostle for the Ghazwa of Banu Al-Mustaliq and we received captives from among the Arab captives and we desired women and celibacy became hard on us and we loved to do coitusinterruptus. So when we intended to do coitus interrupt us, we said, 'How can we do coitusinterruptus before asking Allah's Apostle who is present among us?" We asked (him) about it and he said, 'It is better for you not to do so, for if any soul (till the Day of Resurrection) is predestined to exist, it will exist."(Book #59, Hadith #459)
(3) Narrated Abu Said Al-Khudri: We got female captives in the war booty and we used to do coitusinterruptus with them. So we asked Allah's Apostle about it and he said, "Do you really do that?" repeating the question thrice, "There is no soul that is destined to exist but will come into existence, till the Day of Resurrection."(Book #62, Hadith #137)
(4) Narrated Abu Said Al-Khudri: That while he was sitting with the Prophet a man from the Ansar came and said, "O Allah's Apostle! We get slave girls from the war captives and we love property; what do you think about coitusinterruptus?" Allah's Apostle said, "Do you do that? It is better for you not to do it, for there is no soul which Allah has ordained to come into existence but will be created."(Book #77, Hadith #600)
What he was saying is, go ahead and squirt inside because if it's meant for the women to get pregnant, that was already preordained. He was not against the raping. He was against squirting outside.
This was not the first time they rape during their ghazwa (raid). They did the same thing when they raided the Jews (Banu Quraiza).
This is the sanitized version, Off course history was written by the victor. My point is this; fine, let say the order for prosecution came from Allah, did Allah also asked the Muslims to RAPE too?
We Muslims of today are apologetic to the doing of those medieval Arabs as if we are related to them. The truth is we don't know how Barbaric were these people. They were forever fighting and killing, using God as an excuse. It was [] God but their leaders who were self serving. God was just another third party reference to their unsatiating lust for power and SEX!
Yes Sarah, that time if a party lost a war, their men were beheaded and the women and children became slaves. To be more specific, the women were SEX SLAVES.
And, forbidden to you are, wedded women, those with spouses, that you should marry them before they have left their spouses, be they Muslim free women or not; save what your right hands own, of captured [slave] girls, whom you may have sexual intercourse with, even if they should have spouses among the enemy camp, but only after they have been absolved of the possibility of pregnancy [after the completion of one menstrual cycle]; this is what God has prescribed for you.
Qur'an 4:24 Tafsir al-Jalalayn
I don't know about the rest of the Muslim population. As for me I listen to Ar Razi:
Razi wrote three books dealing with religion; they were: The Prophets' Fraudulent Tricks (Arabic مخارق الانبياء), The Stratagems of Those Who Claim to Be Prophets (Arabic حيل المتنبيين), and On the Refutation of Revealed Religions (Arabic نقض الادیان). He offered harsh criticism concerning religions, in particular those religions that claim to have been revealed by prophetic experiences. Razi asserted that "[God] should not set some individuals over others, and there should be between them neither rivalry nor disagreement which would bring them to perdition."[16] He argued,
"On what ground do you deem it necessary that God should single out certain individuals [by giving them prophecy], that he should set them up above other people, that he should appoint them to be the people's guides, and make people dependent upon them?[16]
Concerning the link between violence and religion, Razi expressed that God must have known, considering the many disagreements between different religions, that "there would be a universal disaster and they would perish in the mutual hostilities and fighting. Indeed, many people have perished in this way, as we can see."[16]
He was also critical of the lack of interest among religious adherents in the rational analysis of their beliefs, and the violent reaction which takes its place:
"If the people of this religion are asked about the proof for the soundness of their religion, they flare up, get angry and spill the blood of whoever confronts them with this question. They forbid rational speculation, and strive to kill their adversaries. This is why truth became thoroughly silenced and concealed."[16]
Al-Razi believed that common people had originally been duped into belief by religious authority figures and by the status quo. He believed that these authority figures were able to continually deceive the common people "as a result of [religious people] being long accustomed to their religious denomination, as days passed and it became a habit. Because they were deluded by the beards of the goats, who sit in ranks in their councils, straining their throats in recounting lies, senseless myths and "so-and-so told us in the name of so-and-so..."[16]
He believed that the existence of a large variety of religions was, in itself, evidence that they were all man made, saying, "Jesus claimed that he is the son of God, while Moses claimed that He had no son, and Muhammad claimed that he [Jesus] was created like the rest of humanity."[16] and "Mani and Zoroaster contradicted Moses, Jesus and Muhammad regarding the Eternal One, the coming into being of the world, and the reasons for the [existence] of good and evil."[16] In relation to the Hebrew's God asking of sacrifices, he said that "This sounds like the words of the needy rather than of the Laudable Self-sufficient One."[16]
On the Quran, al-Razi said:
"You claim that the evidentiary miracle is present and available, namely, the Koran. You say: "Whoever denies it, let him produce a similar one." Indeed, we shall produce a thousand similar, from the works of rhetoricians, eloquent speakers and valiant poets, which are more appropriately phrased and state the issues more succinctly. They convey the meaning better and their rhymed prose is in better meter. ... By God what you say astonishes us! You are talking about a work which recounts ancient myths, and which at the same time is full of contradictions and does not contain any useful information or explanation. Then you say: "Produce something like it"?! [16]
From the beginning of the human history, all of those who claimed to be prophets were, in his worst assumption tortuous and devious and with his best assumption had psychological problems.[1]
In the end, we can conclude that God was given too much credits for the evil that ma[d] do. I stand by God's side on the Day of Resurrection. As long as there were CRIMES AGAINST HUMANITY regardless of praises and salutations, those people will have to pay the Ferryman.
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Response from Master Jedi:
😉...
Disagreements among them started no sooner after the death of the Prophet, the era of Abu Bakr and Umar. Next Usman was killed at the hands of the very own 'religious' people. During Ali, it became even more divided.. that's "religion" to the people, hungry for power
Hadith? The Prophet himself forbade any of his be written down. Hadith only came hundreds of years after the Prophet's death..
Ibnu Arabi..👇
I follow the religion of Love
and go whichever way His camel leads me.
his is the true faith;
This is the true religion.
Master Jedi, I have no respect for the Arabs, then now and forever. I think they are a bunch of self-serving idiots.
I was looking at my book collection. Initially I plan to reread them all again. *The[] I realized I had outgrown all my book[s]. This morning I tried Googling several topics that used to interest me. That too I had outgrown.
* Same with you?
My only topic of interest is you! Can you believe it Sarah? All the books in my collection and all the wisdom that I have cannot match my infatuation towards you.
The moment I open my eyes, the first thought is what am I going to say to Sarah. I am now officially addicted to you LMAO.
Honey, every second I'm awake, I'm constantly thinking of what to say to you. You pushed me to be my best. Isn't the job of a writer is to write? Hence like pumping iron my writing ability muscle (if there is such a thing) is fully developed.
So developed it is that writing is now automatic for me. The minute I put my fingers on the keyboard, ideas come oozing out.
The only *thi[s] now is separating what I want to say and what I think you want to read. That is the tricky part.
* OK Sarah, you want [] to write whatever I want to say.
For example; what I want to say has some sexual connotation but what I think you want to read is a sanitized version of what I want to say. Hence instead of asking you the color of your panties I ended explaining the whole thing like a distinguished college professor LOL.
If I have it my way Sarah, it is sex, sex, sex all the way. However since you are a good girl, Dr Sarah, I decided to seduce you with an intellectual discourse.
Sigh...That is the tragedy of my life. All the loving and no humping.
How do you contain it Sarah? I imagine you must have cried a lot thinking about our fate. Is it true baby? Did you cry when you are in bed? Because you didn't answer my question on whether you are happy with me twice.
That is a very straight forward question which requires a very straight forward answer.
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Baby let's go for pizza. How about we go to Chicago? You like?
OK honey I will *[] eat that much. Those guys are pigs LOL.
* Hahaha Actually after the first one I'm already satiated.
Hey Sarah, if you are in Malaysia the first place I take *[to] to eat is a beriyani restaurant in Damansara Jaya. Superb beef beriyani baby.
* Alright! You like it... It's a Weight Watchers nightmare though. I think you don't have to worry about it. I bet you are slim and trim. Right baby?
That was fun. So, we had pizza and we had beriyani.
I wanted to do this for a long time (since last year). So *[] you can go and get yourself this perfume:
* OK you are game...
Buy the green bottle, not the pink one. If you cannot find it then go for this one:
Both are citrus undertone. The Miss Dior Cherie L' Eau has the freshness of the grass in it.
I'm not sure if you can still get it. I try to get a bottle too so that I can imagine you wearing it.
Yes, 100 ml for RM85. A 76% discount. This is the exact bottle:
This is exciting. Now I can smell you, It has to be June for me. Next week there will be 2 holidays and the following week is already school holiday for 2 weeks. Lizzie will be at home. Let me try to get it by this Thursday tough.
I think I can. The holidays are on Monday and Wednesday.
Definitely this is the perfume I will buy for you honey.
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We are truly Layla and Majnun LOL.
Hey, you want to know my favorite perfume?
It is Swiss Army Altitude. Also citrus undertone.
As you can tell, I love smelling fresh. It awakens my senses.
Remember my stupid motto? Look good, smell good and feel good. From there you know I am a Visual Kinesthetic.
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OK baby now are you happy with me? We are making progress aren't we?
Hmmm,... Still not happy? OK then how about you buy yourself this t-shirt? When you miss me you wear it.
Wear it to bed baby. Let's be resourceful. You agree?
And to CONFIRM yourself you are my wife wear this little gadget:
That is a reminder that we are warriors. It is as practical as hell.
Right... Almost 12:00 am let's listen to your signature song.
Baby, we did good today huh? Let's make everyday like this.
Goodnight Sarah. I love you so much.
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I don't want to sleep Sarah. My cup is still not full.
How about we watch a comedy or two, then I sleep. I got a feeling you [] been crying.
You still crying... I can tell. What do I do Sarah?
OK let's wind down. How about we listen [] Rumi? I assure you it is soothing to the soul:
While watching Rumi, I came to this realization... For 14 years you had been with me. Yet you have to be behind the veil. Sarah, my dear wife... I can only imagine such an agony you are in right now.
Baby no matter what, I will write to you every day. If I can't, I will let you know. I can see now how devoted you are to me.
I love you Sarah. You are a good wife. I will not forget how you healed me. Of how you took [] though a journey of self discovery. All because you never fail to be there for me. From self doubt I become whole again. That is your doing Sarah.
OH Gosh, I must have done something right to deserve your love. You gave your heart wholeheartedly to me.
You are an angel honey...
Honey, you sure you want me to say what is in my mind?
Well baby, you are the answer to my prayers. Just like Lizzie and Els, you are my long lost soulmate. All those love songs that I listened to and don't know who it was meant for, that was meant *[] you.
* Awww baby, thank you. You are such a darling.
Man, this is heavy. I don't want to aggravate your pain baby. Let's listen to your lullaby an[t] we go to sleep:
Shucks, I can't let go. Alright then... Let's listen to TWO hahaha more songs. OK baby? Now I know who is on the other end of these songs (yay!)
Haaah... I meet you at last. Now I don't have to wonder what is that void that I was feeling in my heart all these while. You, yes you Sarah filled up that void. My heart is no longer aching. Oh my God, here I am thinking I will never experience True Love. I thought True Love only happens in fairy tales. Now that I experience it, I can truly love again.
I can now love Lizzie and the kids as the way they should be loved. I finally able to love my parents. Honey, don't forget, I Sharudin the Stud LOL finally closed the the chapter with Gayshas.
Oh yeah in case you wonder, I also quit smoking cigarettes and cannabis after I met you.
You are a certified Florence Nightingale for the Lonely Heart Club Troika President LMAO LMAO.
What can I say baby. You want me to speak my mind? Well how about a good night kiss?
HAHAHA know you know why I refrain from speaking my mind. It is a mind obsessed with devouring you baby...
Unless you want to help me screwing in the light bulb.
