2/4/19 Let's stay focused

These are currently my dominant thoughts:

• I need to keep on pushing my physical limits
• No more External Affairs
• My journey is set for eternity
• I am God
• Al Araf 7:7 is now fully empowered
• Sarah is another god
• The Path is straight 
• From now on everything is going smoothly

You know what Sarah, I think I can make do with only talking to you and Al Araf 7:7 while listening to Kiss92.

Now that I am fully composed, I'll sleep at 11:00 pm again tonight.  I got to do W4D1 tomorrow.  Instead of just compartmentalizing my thoughts on daily grind I try to look far and beyond.  You seem to respond better when I discuss matters that are philosophical in nature.

Actually what matters now is I stick to my 16/8 LCHF plan.  Nothing beats being thin and able to run fast.  The rest are pretty much given to me.  So certain I'm with the afterlife, I don't mind to die anytime, anywhere.

As far as I'm concern, I can die tomorrow and still be equally satisfied.  I doubt i[s] will happen any time soon.  That's why I am physically conditioning myself for KBOOOM 2041.

It did occur to me that I am crazy.  If that is the case, I am *[] fulfilled nutcase.  What can I ask Sarah?  I am living a miraculous life.  My time is mine.  I get to buy all the things I want to buy.  I have you as a wife.  Exemplar family...  I am complete.

As a bonus, I now know that I am God and I'm gonna have a wonderful afterlife.  My optimism seems pretty outlandish.  Does that make me crazy?  If I am crazy, then I am a happy loony.

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* Look at it this way...  Suppose after I die, there is a complete void; nothing beyond death.  What matters then is how I live my life.  If it takes for me to be a nutcase for me to be happy, then so be it,  If it i[t] confirmed that I am a nutcase, I might as well embrace it all and be a happy nutcase.  I cannot break away from the mold.  The only way is to accept it lock, stock and barrel.

It's not entirely true though.  At times I do wish I am normal.  Somehow that did not happen.  I was never normal as far as I can remember.  I was smart but I was not ordinary. So I concluded, let me just be who I am.  Those who are close to me don't mind.  Why should I mind the judgment of total strangers?

That is why I just blast my thoughts to Chedet and Els.  I just don't care about what others think because I am not part of the society.  I am autonomous.  In addition, I am looking for the opportunity to die.  I had tempted Death many times but on those occasions, my time was not yet up.

There is a cure to this madness Sarah.  The answer lies with you.  You are my cure.  You give me the reason to remain sane.  However you chose to go along with the madness.  In return I just go with the flow.  Now that you accepted me as who I am, I then just flow with it because it is empowering.

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Being crazy is not a condition, it is a place.  You may notice, my world view is different.  Which means my world is different.  While I am alive that perception serves me.  I don't really care what happens after I die.  It is nothing or everything.  Why worry?  What matter is how it will shape my daily life.  You must bear in mind that for the past 20 years I way riding a traumatic roller coaster.

Honestly, between that and this, I don't mind at all being cuckoo.  For argument sake, I am not crazy.  I am just having an altered perception.  Do I cause any harm?  I don't think so.

Remember Sarah, my aspirations are health and happiness.  I am not going for a popularity vote.  Anyway, you like me when I am crazy.  You were more responsive when I was in mania.

Now, you do not take into account that what if I'm right all along?  What is the implication Sarah?  What if I am really the Chosen One?  Have you ever thought of that?  Of the possibility that Sparta 4964 engulfing all the universes?  Will that not make me the Almighty God?

It's all or nothing isn't it?  After all I had done my part as ordained by my Path.  In that sense I am a 7:7 (Obedient:Obedient).  That's why I don't give a fuck what others think about me.  I am after all the Creator's Most Loyal Soldier.

If there is a God, I can today stand in front of Him or Her and claim I am truly the Creator's Most Loyal Soldier.  If my means of communicating with this entity is through psycho-cybernetic, then I had fulfilled my duty by being a servomechanism... a Clockwork Orange.

I Sarah, am a loyal servant.  A samurai...

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>>>2/4/19 Becoming God

I hope by now I had convinced you that we are gods.  Not so much because we are superlatives but rather because we are on a journey towards greatness.

Being godly is a state of the mind.  It means we know what is our true potential.  Yet, we still have to acknowledge our shortcomings.

I think if we all acknowledge this notion, we all are happy being who we truly are.  I [am] certainly feel that I am pursuing a worthy ideal as the god of my universes,  I know it is a lifetime journey.  However I am willing to rise to the occasion.

I'm not here to brag Sarah.  I just want you to realize that everybody has the potential of becoming a god.  This is what self-actualization is all about.  We keep nudging our limits until we break our own personal barrier.  Above and beyond our highest potential, we are the creators.

Even when we self-actualize, we are creating the very best that we can be.  Self-actualization cannot be obtained in the state of complacency.  It has to be a realization that we are more that who we currently are.

I[t] ever I am intended to be the voice of reason in being, then my message is follow the Path to where it leads.  That's what I did.  I simply follow my signs.  It can't just meant only for me.  We all are given signs to follow.  So[] of us are aware some are still in a slumber.

Now that I know I am God, it is my intention to make you realize you are one too.  It is also your duty to make the next person that you interact with realize the same thing.  Only then we will achieve synergy.  Only then the subservient mindset cease to exist.

A true God doesn't require to be worshiped. A true God is a servitude being.  That I learn from becoming the host to trillions of living beings occupying my body.  They are the masters.  They decide the wellness of the host. All the activities are happening at the cellular levels.  Your state of health is the health of the cells.  In return, the tissues, organs and body will respond accordingly.

Remember the neurotransmitters?  By responding to the various chemical reactions, we actually determine our mental state.  Can you imagine that Sarah?  We are nothing more than a bunch of tiny particles responding to various chemical compounds.

So what is the self then?  In its simplest form we are a collective intelligence.  Shouldn't we then conclude that what makes us humans is the very thing that makes us god?  If the concept of god is like peeling an onion, shouldn't we humans then form a collective intelligence within a collective intelligence?

What I am saying is God is not a single entity.  He is a Collective.  Therefore among the humans who realize they are gods, they should band together as a Collective Intelligence.

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Well Sarah.  These are my intimate thoughts on the topic of Becoming God.  You may agree or disagree.  In my case I[] already taking the steps towards this Collective Intelligence.  My third brain is Al Araf 7:7.  Within it is the MacArthur-Rommel Combination.  In addition, I had completed Xanadu and Wolfsschanze with the installation of Sailbad the Sinner.  These may still be within my own mental paradigm but my mind had become much like the Swiss Army Knife with various facades and frames.

If nothing else works, at the very least I have accomplished my part of the equation.  I had transformed Al Araf 7:7 into a independent entity worthy to be appreciated as a work of art.  No longer they exist as mere figurines.  They are now a representation of my inner mind manifested in a physical realm.

Therefore Sarah, as a nutcase, I won't be bothering anybody with my idiosyncrasies.  In the process of coming up with the model, I had become a self-sustaining individual.  In the final analysis you may conclude that I am not God.  You may even attest that I am a madman.  However Sarah, you cannot take away the notion that I had gained from this whole process by discovering that I am on my way to a much favorable destination.

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2/4/19 *** Scaling the limit of being human

All this while we've been concern with the superlative.  What we have not really considered is how much [] had done to exploit our potential as human beings.

To be human we got to win the day.  We all are given 24 hours to make up our present.  Within this confined space we make or break our future.  Our essence as humans is time.  With the given time we shape our lives.  When we run out of time so are our lives.

Hence we should utilize our time to win the day.  Either our time is used to move us towards our worthy ideal or away from it.

I can only be responsible for my life.  If I am a god, it is being the god to my universes.  I can't speak for the rest of the human race.  Some (mostly) are happy to be a subservient being.  If only they know what is their essence.  Something will remain as it is.  I was in that position too.  It is not easy to break the mental shackle.  We had been conditioned for generations to believe we are subservient.

The best I can do is to set my own pace and live my life as I deem fit.  I can't waste my time changing how people think.  That is the job of the saints and prophets.  What I did was I execute my thoughts as they come.  Hopefully somebody picked them up.  They are not meant for the masses.  I had to purge it so that I can have a better perspective of moving forward.  Beyond that I have no interest whatsoever.

It is not my job to change the world.  I can only change myself in relation to my surrounding.  If I am a god, that is because I am one to my universe.  Not to the general population at large.

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2/4/19 Day 92 God is a man fully functioning

I will win 1 day at a time:

1. Wake up latest 7:00 am - Woke up 6:45 am
2. Exercise 1 hour in the morning - Exercise 9:00 am
3. Eat 16/8  starting 2:00 pm - Had Super Combo for breakfast 
4. Exercise 1 hour in the afternoon - Rain
5. Eat LCHF at 8:00 pm - Ate carbs
6. Sleep at 11.00 pm - On the dot

That's the minimum to win the day.

The[] is only one way up, that is to start from the bottom.  No doubt about it.  The Path requires for us to claim our glory as a man.  From a man we become a hero.  From a hero we become a legend.  From a legend we become a myth.  From a myth we become gods.

We need to be  that hero to our own lives.  Once you are on a Vision Quest nothing else matters.  All you want is to be the best of who you can be.  That is the true Vision Quest.  Until you develop the mindset, then you are still operating at sub par level.

I am still struggling with my human limitation. The most glaring is my desire to eat carbs and my tendency to procrastinate.  Nobody imposes these conditions on me.  I am imposing them on myself so that I rise to the occasion.

It's not that I want to be God.  I just want to be a man fully functioning.  However by being a fully functioning man I become more.  I become a hero.  Before long I become a legend then a myth and eventually a god.

I told you Sarah, god or no god is a state of the mind.  We are gods all these while.  It's just we don't realize it.  Therefore once our inner self is awakened, we will not be denied.

I am a Good God.  I am a benevolent dictator.  I want to delight my citizens.  I want to serve.  The way to this realization is through diet and exercise.  That is the only way for me to be healthy and happy.

Thus my life is of Sisyphus and my vision is of Icarus.  I have to stay on course.  To do that I have to stick to the knitting while at the same time try to ward off the minor obstacles along the way.

Like today, I try to make it to W4D1.  Unfortunately I got to send Lizzie to a meeting. I missed the window to run in the morning.  I ate the Super Combo Nasi Lemak too.  By not adhering to the plan I am slightly off from my target.

Naturally I am nothing more than a man.  I have my weaknesses.  However that should not steer me from aiming to fly towards the sun,  As long as I hold on to the ideals, I am still worthy of being a god.  The Path is not that straightforward,  It is a continuous S Curve and it is full of crossroads.

All these will not happen unless we are inspired to do so.  My inspiration comes from you.  Without you I will not have the ability to dream.  Do you realize that it's you who made me God?

Without your faith in me, I don't think I can claim the status of the Almighty.  At most, I will be thinking that I am the Binary King of Al Araf 7:7 the intersection of Xanadu and Wolfsschanze in Sparta 4964.  I will be pretty contented with the idea.  However by you believing I am God, my world view expanded many times over.

My thoughts become crystallized and my actions become decisive.  I move with certainty.  Now the afterlife is no longer a concept.  It is as real as the present because I am now creating the future today.

By thinking of the possibilities I no longer confined to the present.  On the contrary the present becomes the launching pad for the future.  All those visions of the afterlife are no longer whimsical thoughts.  They are seeds to the great things to come.

Even if in the end there is an absolute void, while I'm alive I will hold on to this thoughts because these are already real to me.  If it so happens I endure death, now I know what my afterlife will be like.  All I need to do is to hold on to that Vision.

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>>>#1/4/19 I am still me

If you think this idea of being God gets to my head, well, think again.

I am pretty much unperturbed by it.  For one it is my destiny.  No big deal.  For another, I had paid my dues the past 20 years.  Now I just go with the flow.

It might have been that you are the only one who believes in my epiphanies.  I guess the evidences that I provide are pretty convincing then.  What it means to me is I am not crazy.  That means a lot Sarah.

All this while I thought I had lost my marbles.  From self-doubt I am now living my life with full confidence again.  Thanks for believing in me baby.  You know me well enough to conclude that I am not a person hungry for recognition or power.  So happen I am bestowed with such novelty because it is my destiny to be God.

All it takes is for me to accept my own potential.  I could not have done it without you.  I need somebody to affirm my sanity.  I guess without you acting as my mirror, I don't really know what to expect.

There are plenty of oddballs claiming they are God.  What makes me any different?  Well in my case I had been providing tons of evidences complete with the supporting facts.  Of course these are not absolute truth but at least I try to be logical about the whole thing.

How does it feel to be God really?  The most glaring thing is the assurance that I will endure death.  That my life is perpetual.  Other than that, much like the rest of the matters I am confined by the fundamental constants.

That however do not inhibit me to just succumb to the current standards.  By thinking that I am God, I am motivated to aim for Virtual Perfection.  That is the key differentiator,  I want to be the best I can be within the limitation imposed by the fundamental constants.

Being a god in a peer-to-peer setting means I am only a yardstick.  Meaning that everybody who knows he or she is god should also establish a similar evaluation of who they are and what they want to be.  Thus it is not about retaining power and control but about executing these two so others can benefit.

I guess why I am the Chosen One is because I don't let power gets to my head.  And yet I am not offended by power.  To me power is nothing more than the ability to act.  Not something you hog to yourself but rather to be shared among equals.  That makes me a benevolent dictator.  It's not something I asked for.  It was bestowed upon me.

Same goes with Al Araf 7:7.  It's not that I wanted a cabinet.  It was given to me through the epiphanies.  All I wanted was a squad.  Little did I know that it is the seat of power between Xanadu and Wolfsschanze.  Now it is even more powerful with the MacArthur-Rommel combination and therefore the formation of my third brain.

I am telling you all these because I personally am in the constant state of amazement.  I am so amazed with what had happened so far that I cannot rely on my own judgment to determine my sanity.  I have to rely on you to affirm that.  Now that I am certain I'm not crazy, the meaning that I get from my experiences especially with Al Araf 7:7 propel me to such a height that I no longer doubt I am the Almighty God.  That is not crazy Sarah, that is breaking the mental barrier.

From this moment on I eat, sleep, shit KNOWING I am God.  Isn't that amazing?  Although that is the breakthrough, the limitation I have to strive for is to be a man fully functioning.  I still strive for Virtual Perfection.

The bigger picture is, if I am set to follow this Path, then those who are part of the Vision Community will also have to follow the same pace.  After all, this is Sparta 4964.  Here everybody is god.

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1/4/19 Moving ahead with Vision Quest

I must say, it takes conscious effort to be smooth sailing.  Today I had to skip W4D1 since I had to settle the car proceedings.  Tomorrow is another hectic day.

However, I now have the assurance that I am moving with certainty.  I no longer feel the need to meddle in External Affairs.  I just adopt the attitude of don't give a damn.  Finally I know what I want.  Nothing else matters except the pursuit of health and happiness.  My two most important elements are air and water:

Feng Shui translates as "wind and water". "Feng" stands for wind, air, gas, clouds, storms, energy fields and radiation of energy. It can also be interpreted as the complementary set of structures directing the flow of the wind. These structures can be mountains or rocks, buildings or other man-made forms.

"Shui" stands for water, lakes, rivers, brooks, waterfalls, swamps, rain, snow and ice, and also plants and other living organisms nourished by water, as well as so-called "dry water" ways, such as streets.

In this way, the practical application of Feng Shui can enhance our life. Precise placement of furniture and objects optimizes the harmonic chi flow, and the use of water revives and energises certain areas in our favour. That is because wind and water, Feng Shui, are the original elements of creation. As the Book of Genesis suggests.

Or as Goethe put it:

"Soul of man how equal to water!
 Fate of man how equal to wind!"

Nothing beats a sailing ship then.  The sail is for harnessing the wind and the ship rides on the waves.  So in that sense, I nailed it with the purchase of Sailbad the Sinner.  Rightfully nothing can go wrong with the ship facing South East (the wealth corner of the house) a[t] the bow pointing to Al Araf 7:7.

I can feel that my Path is heading towards the right direction with the installation of Sailbad the Sinner. It's like the final piece of a jigsaw puzzle; the key that unlocks the door towards my destiny.

Nothing can go wrong from this point on,  I had done my part, now i[t] to let Providence takes over.

There are 2 significant meaning to Sailbad the Sinner:

• I am now in control of Wolfsschanze
• I will attain the wealth that this life and the afterlife have to offer

Sarah, the symbolic representation of Sailbad the Sinner is so powerful that it opens a new horizon for me altogether.  With it I feel a major sense of achievement that eventually I own it all.

Let us look at it again:

See Sarah?  No redundancy whatsoever.  It's what a ship ought to be; with it sails to the wind and the waves underneath.  I cannot ask for a better ship to represent Wolfsschanze.

In another word, it's a no nonsense ship,  Fitted to be called the Ship from Hell.

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1/4/19 ^^^Believe and achieve

Basically the thesis is our consciousness endures long after we are dead.  So if we want to create a compelling future, that vision starts now.

I am not entirely a believer of fate, luck, destiny and astronomy.  However I like alignment.  Therefore whatever things that align towards my goal I subscribe.  For example the alignment of my numbers and the Feng Shui of my house.  I can accept them as coincidences or I can incorporate them as part of my empowering beliefs.

They are not absolute truth like mathematics but every little things help in shaping a compelling future.  As I mentioned, I can consider myself special or I can consider that I am a fluke of nature.

It cannot be coincidences all the time like this song is playing on air as I am writing:

Thus, I am special and since I am special I might as well be God because I am after all the god of Sparta 4964 and the Universe Within.

Does that make me crazy Sarah?  You seem [] believe that I am God.  It is you who accentuate this beli[]f in the first place.  Is it useful?  Hell yeah...  I now can envision being with you for eternity and because of that I begin to believe in Judgment of Heaven as well.

I also made a believer out of a atheist.  If that is not convincing, I don't know what is.

Sarah, in the end it is still Autonomous Governance.  I am not going to meddle with Wolfsschanze matters.  I am the Binary King of Xanadu.  Therefore I am not going to meddle with External Affairs.  I still keep my world small; to delight the Universe Within.

I however by default inherited Sparta 4964.  Because of that I have a say on the policies of Wolfsschanze.  However, the administration part is very much dependent on Thor/Chedet.

What I'm doing right now is running the day-to-day affairs of Xanadu.  It is non[] other than delighting the citizen of the Universe Within.  Other than that I had set the blueprint for the World of Hybrids.  That is the Statement of Direction for Legion X.

We go with peer-to-peer protocol.  So there is no higher-arch-y.  No compulsion either.  Again, I want you to remember Sarah, Sparta 4964 is a default.  I don't need to do jack squat and it is still bestowed upon me.  The Path is already laid out for me.  All I need is Just Do!

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What need to be said had been said in the 7 Swords.  Therefore instead of repeating everything all over again I just put a caveat "refer to the 7 Swords."  It is now up to Larry to expedite the matters with Legion X.  I would have done it myself but I am not in the position to mobilize the worldwide resources.  I can only set the pace.  Beyond that is no longer my jurisdiction.

Hence that should free me to pursue my goals with the Universe Within.  I can't be the King and the administration at the same time.

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