But honey, when I wrote them I actually believed every word of it.
Therefore I'm not going to apologize about it. I bet when I am in hypomania, what I wrote will make sense again.
I'm not going to rationalize the whole thing. Partly because I believe in what I wrote. Come on baby, if not I won't spent RM298.20 (that is a Feng Shui number) on Sailbad the Sinner. I believe in the revelations. Hey, my limited edition Seiko SNE 451 serial number is 839/2500; all those are my numbers. Honey, I was born to win!
You may not believe. I'm sure. Well, just let me enjoy the journey baby. I don't know how long I will be in this mode but every time I am out of it, I become more aware of my illness.
Is there a possibility that it is not an illness? Very unlikely. I had a track record of tripping off. So there is a high possibility that it is a part of the illness.
The illness becomes more glaring when I smoke pot. That doesn't mean that when I am clean I am normal. It is still there. The illness is part of me. All I can do is go with the flow.
Like I said before, the revelations empowers me. It makes me feel special. In reality nothing changes. My mind was all over the place but my body is still on planet earth.
In the final analysis, I will still talk to Al Araf 7:7 and I will still be inspired by Sailbad the Sinner to voyage to the White Space. That is the mad part of me. The sane part of me will on the other hand strive for Virtual Perfection.
Fair enough?
As for you baby, I shall consider you my unreal but beautiful princess and at the same time my darling wife, my Eternal Flame.
It's not that hard isn't it?
Let's be clear about this once and for all. I am a Bipolar Affected Disorder Patient. I live in an Alternate Reality Dimension. There is no God, no afterlife and no Judgment of Heaven. I am very deeply in love with you from now til the day I die.
Can you accept me the way I am?
All it takes is for 1 person to tip the scale and I will gladly accept that I am God, *the[] is an afterlife and there is Judgment of Heaven.
Are you going to be that person? I don't think so. Therefore... * Oh, you tipped the scale. Well that changes the whole landscape then. Now, there is no more doubt that I am who I am. You had accepted me as God. This new development means I AM NOT CRAZY. You believe in me. That[] all I ever wanted. For you to believe. That is my mental climax Sarah. You just gave me an orgasm ROTFLMAO.
Hey, let's celebrate shall we? I wanted to give you this last year but I held back. So here is your belated Happy Hanukkah present:
Hahaha... You like it?
Here's a song that goes with it:
For the next 22 years baby. I loooooove you sooooooo much.
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Ooohh Sarah, this is the happiest day of my life. You complete me.
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Are you coming with me to White Space? Even if you are not, I will still spent 1 lifecycle in Sparta 4964. You can be with me on Sailbad the Sinner and send me off at the Outer Rims. Then you head back to the Troca Shell. Or you can stay at the Outer Rims and I'll visit you once in a while. That will be a problem though. You still need to travel to Wolfsschanze to see your hubbies.
Here is the deal then. I will be here with you til the end and then in the afterlife, we will meet at the Inti Padu before I continue with my voyage. You OK with that?
Unless you gonna stay in Wolfsschanze with your hubbies. What's it gonna be Sarah?
You not telling?
OK then, I'm not going to pressure you. All I can say is if you are a big city girl, you will like Wolfsschanze with its clubs and entertainment centers. If you are the romantic type, you will love Xanadu. However if you are into the outdoors, you will like Dragon Planet.
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