Gosh so sleepy...
I'll take a quick nap.
Later Sarah...
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I think 16/8 with carbs is a bad idea. I still spike insulin. If I trace back on the very thing that produce result it is 16/8 LCHF.
Even Atkins Phase I is about restricting carbs to 20 grams per day.
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I slept for 2 hours just now and lost the momentum to exercise in the afternoon.
Need to have consistency in executing my daily actions.
One of the challenges is to compartmentalize my thoughts to only think of the 3 goals. Living in isolation has its pluses and minuses. The plus is I minimize distractions. The minus is I tend to rely on social media as a mean of communication.
Look at it this way, nobody out there gives a hoot about what the other person thinks. As I said External Affairs is like pouring water on a taro leaf. A wasteful effort.
What about you honey, do you care about what I write?
I think you also don't care. However I think you do care about whether I am a success or a failure. Therefore as long I am progressing I am a success.
Not all the time I can write something worthy of your time. Thus there are times I write because that's the only way *[] can stay connected to you.
* Thanks for the understanding baby.
Most of the time I write so that I can reflect on myself.
What I wrote in Dreams of Mirrors in particular is for my own reference. It is only by chance that others got to read my thoughts. They don't really matter unless they are the players. How many players out there? You tell me... Most of them are only readers.
However, I don't underestimate the power of written communication. During the 1999 Cyborg War, the emails I wrote went far and wide.
If not it won't reach the few key players I had identified.
So the Blog is a sieving mechanism like mining for gold nuggets.
My Game Theory does have some merit.
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Now from a fisherman, I shall turn into a farmer. Dreams of Mirrors is my plot of land where I plant my idea seeds. It is now a complete orchard. While waiting for it to bear fruit I attend to the alternative crop which is Sharudin the Hermit. Here I am casual. I don't need to think of harvesting. This is a herb garden. I plant and pick as and when I need to consume the crops.
In another words, here I plant for personal consumption. Nobody bothers me and I don't bother anybody.
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I actually had come a long way. From a high strung Cyborg Warrior of the early millennial to a lost soul for a good half a decade to a person who came to term with himself and his illness in this past couple of years.
I look forward to the years to come. The ascend is certainly challenging but exciting as well. I shall use my two blogs as my references in moving forward. Those readers are merely coincidences. They don't carry weight in my direction moving forward.
In the end everybody is responsible for his/her line. What I wrote here are the gravels that make up my Path. So happen I document them for others to view. In reality it doesn't concern them. It is after all Autonomous Governance.
Therefore they are mere spectators. Unless they are the Army of Slyman/Soloman.
As for me, I have to take this Path. It had been set for me. I can't do it any other way. This is my destiny. It would have been easy if the Path is just a straight road. However the right path need not be a straight path. I however is determine to make it the shortest possible route by making it a simple journey ahead.
Thus to make it simple I need to be certain of my destination. Simple need not mean easy. Simple only means less variable to manage. In this case I only manage myself, my Tetrahedron and Al Araf 7:7.
What will you do Sarah, if you know you cannot fail? Don't you then move with certainty? That's what I am experiencing right now. I know I am guaranteed success. All I got to do is take informed action. There is no more fear and doubt. I know who I am and where I'm going.
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There are a few of my friends who wanted for me to come out of the shell. They are well meaning people and had been nice to me like Sashi for example. I however is not inclined to *[t]o that simply because I enjoy your company the most. You create positive impact on my life. So powerful is your presence that I don't need anybody else.
* Yes honey, you give empowering meaning to my very existence.
You understand my struggle to be free. In the final analysis, I am on a quest to be God. To be God is a man fully functioning. What a concept Sarah. Again it is simple but it is not easy. As a man I have to battle my own dark forces. I have to free myself from the limitation that I had within me.
Knowing alone is not enough, we must do.
Doing requires effort. Effort requires time and energy.
Thus, in the end I am nothing more tha[t] the essence of time. It is my only commodity to trade with. Take away time I am nothing. In that sense I am perfect to be called the Gyro Horology.
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