7/4/19 The Moral Dilemma of Brutal Sex Drive

As much as I am disciplining my body to endure physical stress, I also need [] condition my mind to be resilient.

I need to keep my thoughts pure.

At present that proves to be a challenge.  The more I am certain about my destiny, the more horny are my thoughts.  It's not just horny thoughts, it's brutal sex drive.  That drive is the one I channel to [this] writing this blog.  As I write I imagine ripping your clothes off and licking you clean from head to toe.

See?  This song is on air:

Sometimes the sensation is so intense that my hands tremble and my heart palpitates.  I need a real good fuck.  Either that or I keep transmuting the brutal sex drive into creative energy.

The last time I got laid was April 2018.  Now when I look at chicks with tight jeans I imagine how delicious are their asses.

I don't know whether this brutal sex drive will eventually subside.  I give it until June.  If it's still there I definitely go for a double session.  Not two at a go but *[] shot[] in one session.  The feeling is more intense now that I know for certain I'm not going to fuck you.

* Thanks for the understanding Sarah.  Let's do some window shopping.

I kinda like this girl.  Her skin is so supple:

I really like her.  Plus she does anal and I can come in her mouth.  I don't know about the anal part but I certainly will scissor her LOL.

She is certainly a delicious piece of steak honey:

Let see who else.  Nope just her...

A double session is RM440.  They normally rotate the girls.  If I want her I better get her by next week.  She is already on display for the past 2 weeks.

Hey, what the big deal with anal sex anyway?  I tried before but I didn't enjoy doing it.  But I'll give this girl a shot.  Gosh, I don't know Sarah.  I guess I'm just not into it.  But out of curiosity I will experiment with this girl.  What do you think?  Should I give it a shot baby?  Hahaha...

Oh boy, do I corrupt your mind.  Well either that Sarah or I will start talking dirty to you.  Do you prefer that?  OK fine, I'll go for a fuck.

As usual, when I fuck, my goal is to see how many times I can make the girl cum.  Monday I'll let you know.

Baby, I'm glad you understand my sexual dilemma.

This is your lullaby for tonight:

Honestly Sarah, it's you that I desire.  Since I can't have you, I need an outlet to channel my drive.  I'll do anything to have you baby.  But what can I say?  Even in the afterlife I cannot have you.

Goodnight baby.  I love you so much my darling...

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Footnote:  After some deliberations with AlphaX64, I decided not to do it.  It's the most expensive of all my purchases.  RM440 to spend on 2 hours of utility.  It's not cost justified when I can get a relief from Pornhub for free. 

It's all chemical.  Once I offload the buildup pressure, I am back to my normal self.  After all it is just an emotional displacement.  I actually want to have you, but instead I displace my emotion on a gaysha.  Nope...  I rather displace it on something virtual.

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