9/4/19 ***Back to the daily grind

Let say I am a world class athlete and I have a major event coming this 29/9/19.  Failure is not an option.

Will I'll be missing my training or will I stick to the schedule?

Will I eat senselessly or will I follow my plan to hit 57 kg?

There are only 6 points for me to be successful.  This is already April.  I got to be committed.

All I got to do is eat right, exercise and sleep on time.

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I need to put back my thoughts on why I wanted to achieve my 3 lifetime goals.

• I want to impress Dr Amapreet this July by losing 30 kg
• I want to fit in my old clothes again
• I want to run a 10 km run this June
• I want to get rid of the inflammations
• Most importantly I want to be well again.

To get back on track I need to calibrate my 10 k Training tomorrow and make sure I eat 16/8 LCHF.

Starting from tonight I sleep early.

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Pursuing the 3 goals will get me to Virtual Perfection and eventually to health and happiness.

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You know something?  I write so I can stay connected to you.  Sometimes  I feel like keeping quiet.  But if I do that, I will lose the connection I have with you.  You are now my reason of being.

Maybe I should not look at it that way.  Maybe I should treat you like a bystander while I happily rant my thoughts away to myself.

I don't know Sarah.  I am not much of a talker.  I just like introspecting.  This is more of a personal log.  I'm not trying to convince you to subscribe to my thoughts.  I just like the free flow.  Some make sense some don't.

What I know is as a writer, I have to write.  By writing I create my reality twice; once in my mind and once with the keyboard.  

When I write, I am free to think.  I become more resourceful.  Nothing that I write is final.  It is a journey into my mental landscape.  The blog becomes a living entity.  By writing I see who I am and who I become.

Writing too is my means [] stay connected to you.  As the saying goes, all I have are only words.  In actual sense when I write, it is pretty much a form of chatting.  The only difference is I chat with a keyboard.  When we chat, we simply let it out.  At time there were no specific reasons.

As a loner I talk much to myself.  This is how I do it since 2003.  The only difference now is instead of talking to myself, I got you to talk to.

Hence from a monologue now it is a dialogue. 

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