9/4/19 ***Everything about smooth sailing

I guess eternity is a long way to go unless if you are like me, where time is relative.

Therefore as far as I'm concern, the future is now and I'm already living in it.  It's how you look at the world you live in.

In my case, my ship had arrived and I had reached my destiny.  Of course it's my mind that arrives first.  Wherever my mind goes my body will follow shortly after.  It's like playing tennis.  In every instances, I already know where the ball is going.  All it takes is to execute it.  The more clearer the vision in the mind, the better the execution.

My mind is beyond doubt going to the White Space.  Thus the body will follow suit in executing Virtual Perfection.  To achieve the mind and body unison, I got to move with certainty.  To move with certainty I need unconditional love.

What it means is I have the ingredients to attain the Zen of Personal Bliss.  The more I am focused in living in the White Space the more certain I am about my Vision Quest for Virtual Perfection.  Bear in mind my ideals for attaining Virtual Perfection are Health and Happiness.  My 3 goals to achieve that are breathing fresh air, weighing 57 kg and running 10 km/hour.

I keep my rules simple:

• No cigarettes, cannabis and cunts
• Stop eating sugar and starch
• Exercise morning and afternoon

These are all matters with regards to the body, acta non verba.  The body effects the mind.  Therefore I got to return to the body.  First, I got to be a good animal.  Only then I become a man fully functioning.

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It doesn't matter what others think.  I am flowing along my Path.  Everybody has their own Paths.  This is my Path.  From where I stand the Path is very straight.  In the past, I had difficulty staying on course because I thought I am in charge of my destiny.  Now do I understand.  The Path (or the Way) had been there since the very beginning.  All it takes is for me to surrender to it and in return it will take me to my destination effortlessly,  To do that, I must follow my bliss.

What is my bliss then?  None other than eat, read, run, swim, write, sex and sleep.  Of all the things here, sex is my Achilles heel.  I still yearn for the soft and supple body of a woman.  If I can contain my temptation of the flesh and carnal craving, I am on my way of becoming a devout Athlete4Life.

What will it be then?  Both Yati and Ameezan objected to me seeking the pleasure extrinsically.  You are not against the idea.  There is no saying that I have to play by the rules.  The only consideration is financial constraint.  Assuming that money is no object, I'll do it because I love being with a woman more than anything else.

Heck, I'll go and fuck tomorrow.  The last time I fucked was April last year.  So it is justified.  After all I only fuck twice a year.

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On the second thought, I better not condition my mind to remember how pleasurable a woman's body is.  It's not that I am deprived or anything.  I still got Pornhub.  It is free.  Between something I get for free and something I pay RM440 for 2 hours of pleasure, obviously whatever amount of money doesn't justify my action.

I need to save money wherever possible.

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