I will win 1 day at a time:
- Wake up latest 7:00 am - Woke up 10.45 am
- Exercise 1 hour in the morning - Completely missed out
- Eat 16/8 starting 2:00 pm - Had bun and bread with 3-in-1 coffee
- Exercise 1 hour in the afternoon - Watch Avenger, the Infinity War.
- Eat LCHF at 8:00 pm - Ate carbs
- Sleep at 11.00 pm - Sleep at 4:00 am
That's the minimum to win the day.
I was pretty zonked this morning. Had a good sleep though. Don't feel like eating out. So I just have peanut butter sandwich and 3-in-1 coffee while watching Avengers, The Infinity War. It still counts as a 16/8 meal.
It was a good movie. That should prepare me to watch the final story, the Endgame.
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Seriously Sarah, I had done what need to be done and said what need to be said. Now is marking time. I just talk cock and sing song from now on.
As far as I am concern, it is Autonomous Governance. Thus no matter what I do or say will change anything.
I might as well take this 22 years as my Zen of Personal Bliss.
This is long due to me. As a Gyro Horology it is my duty to ascend as a man fully functioning.
I still have to fight my SLIP demons, I still have to be Sisyphus and yet aim high like Icarus. Hence, I need to maintain focus for me to pursue Virtual Perfection.
Let's chill for today. As stated by Sailbad the Sinner, EVERYTHING GOING SMOOTHLY:
Sarah, I missed W7D2 again. I should be focusing on my run. Not some petty External Affairs pertaining to what happened in the past. I should think forward to the future. To 2020 Marathon. That is the immediate priority.
The past does not equal the future. We cannot change the past. However, the future is for the taking. To do that we must seize the day, Capre Diem!
Lately my mind wanders a lot to the past. I was looking for a closure. I need a clear embarkation from the past 20 years to the glorious 22 years ahead. What say you if I pick today as the date?
Today is Day 119 of 2019 and it is 29/4/19. This is a good day to commemorate BHV 911 and to remember the day I announced my declaration of KBOOM 2041 to Chedet. Today is the day I come out of the closet to my 3 Troikas and my 1964 ASAS Dragons. It is also the day I confessed to Dr Amarpreet of my Alternate Reality Dimension.
That should be a perfect closure.
After all I am akin to a parachute jumper. The more jumps I take, the more fatal is the risk. Everything good *[thing] must have an ending. The end should be the beginning.
* Did you write that Sarah? So it is a good thing that we end this?
I want to move on with my life. I am no longer fighting the illness nor the Cyborg War. War of the Roses doesn't concern me. World of Hybrids also doesn't require my involvement.
Seriously Sarah, I just want to be free from being free. I want to pursue Nothingness. To do that I need to aim for simplification. Definitely I need to be a hermit and live in isolation.
This is my end game. To be a minimalist without being an ascetic. The Buddha never asked us to go to the extreme anyway. It is a middle road. Not too tight, not too loose. Definitely the mindset of apple and no apple; Fuzzy Thinking.
Certainly when we are free, our lives are open to many choices. For example when we are a minimalist, we don't have many restrictions. We can eat a[n]t the sidewalk and we can still eat at a fancy restaurant if we want to. Rich people like the kings and queens can't do that. Thus they are confined to certain places fit for their stature,
A minimalist is also a Light Traveler. My journey to White Space only requires my Tetrahedron and Al Araf 7:7. I don't have to bear the burden of humanity. Not even the tiniest insect or even the giants among the animals. Everything has its place. Those humans will reside in Xanadu and Wolfsschanze while the animals on planet earth.
The only thing I am proud to claim is that Wolfsschanze had been reformed as the Place of Wind and Water since I installed Sailbad the Sinner.
Other than that honey, for the past 3 years you had witnessed the completion of Al Araf 7:7 and the epiphanies it had brought with it.
I am an open book. By now you should know where I stand with regards to External Affairs. I am of no use to the general public other than those who will join me in the White Space.
In that sense I am no different from a Constitutional Monarchy. My value as the Benevolent Dictator is only confined to Sparta 4964 and the Universe Within. Beyond that I will not extend my jurisdiction.
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I know I had been wanting to stay out. At times that can't be helped. The mind is a servomechanism. It's the one who decides. I just follow wherever it takes me. Certainly now we are at the tail end. I have less compulsion to do crazy things that in normal circumstance may seem idiotic.
Let me remind you Sarah, I am Sharudin FIVE O 7:7. It is my duty to obey and obey. That is *pa[s]t of the deal being the Creator's Most Loyal Soldier. I simply surrender myself to the Path; wherever it takes me.
* This is why I love you so much. You are here to heal me, my darling.
I often wonder if I ever be a good Muslim again. I had left Islam but I became closer to the Truth. I am still a Muslim (direct meaning: obedient) though. Very much like Ar Razi, the Islamic polymath of the 900 AD, I don't have much respect for the religion and the prophet, but I believe in the Oneness of God.
He wrote:
*These billy goats (Prophets) pretend to come with a message from God, all the while exhausting themselves in spouting their lies, and imposing on the masses blind obedience to the "words of the master.*
More quotes by Ar Razi:
"If the people of this religion are asked about the proof for the soundness of their religion, they flare up, get angry and spill the blood of whoever confronts them with this question. They forbid rational speculation, and strive to kill their adversaries. This is why truth became thoroughly silenced and concealed."
There will only be one Ar Razi. I am grateful for him making such a courageous stand. As for me, I am to fight Iblis. I am not here to save the world.
Well honey, today I RETIRE as a soldier. I don't have to wait until 2024. Already I am no longer doing Information Warfare. Let's settle down as husband and wife. Let's talk about us.
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