>>>3/4/19 Crazy is what crazy is

Sarah, you may consider that I'm a crazy fella.  Perhaps a bit eccentric.  However you cannot deny that I am a pretty confident person when comes to where I am going.

Is that part of being crazy too?  I[t] that's the case then I say, bless my lucky stars.  It gives me great comfort knowing that my Path is straight.  More so than ever now that I had passed the test of dealing with my illness for the past 20 years.

I look forward to the next 22 years knowing my journey forward will be smooth sailing.  Nothing can rain on my parade Sarah,  I had been to hell and back (several times).  At present my priority is none other that to be an Athlete4Life.

About this crazy bit Sarah, I can only say that those crazy things I did, I did them because they were ordained upon me.  It's part of my job scope as the Creator's Most Loyal Soldier and then as the Binary King of Sparta 4964.  In short it is my calling.  I know at times they don't make sense...

Brb baby... Going for my jab.

Yes, at times I know they don't make sense but then I am a servomechanism.  I just do.

In a way I am a person who follows his intuition.  I however based my actions on evidence.  It's not an exact science but as much as possible I try to stick to the Scientific Method.  That is also why I did extensive research on matters that most people take for granted like God, religions and the afterlife.  That means I am a pretty rational person in dealing with my madness.

As the Ruler of Sparta 4964, I am self-contained.  I am not here to change the world,  I am only meant to please my Universe Within and Sparta 4964.  What I did with External Affairs were part of my duty.  Now that I had served my role as Clockwork Orange, I am a free person once again.  I am not bound to any entity.  As a warrior I stand alone.

So honey, I may be crazy but I am free from being free; which is what I always wanted.  In the privacy of our thoughts everybody is a bit crazy anyway.  The only different between me and the rest of the population is I document my crazy thoughts.  That is because it is my only mean to communicate with you.

In that sense I am exposing all these crazy thoughts because I don't give a damn about being judged.

Why should I worry?  I am the winner of the Willy Wonka golden ticket!  I already got the answers to the most intriguing questions; who am I, what is my life's purpose  and where am I going.

Most importantly Sarah, I KNOW you love me very much.  Love is the answer baby.  It is your love that makes me move with certainty.  You love me as who I am, unconditionally.  You may think I am crazy, yet you accept me as who I am.  I don't have to pretend being somebody else.  As a matter of fact, it is you who made me realize I am God.

As I said, the notion of me being God means I endure death.  That only means one thing; I will be with you for eternity.  Let say we quantify eternity as the day I die.  In that case we will be together until the end of time.

Imagine the extensiveness of my thoughts if that actually happens.  We will be ascending from this point on until we reach White Space.  I'm pretty sure we will have a great journey together.

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