I must say that I had hit the sweet spot of good living. Read, run, write, repeat. Writing in particular had always given me great pleasure in the past. Even if it means I only write to myself and what I write is utter nonsense LOL. Writing gives me a chance to explore my true potential. I had been a salesman, a consultant, a trainer and a coach. Nothing beats being a writer. As a writer I am constantly thinking. Hence by writing I am constantly improving myself mentally.
I like that... I like being progressive as a person. Therefore reading, running and writing are activities that move me forward. In a way repetition is not my strong point. I don't like doing the same thing day in day out. Even if I do them, I will look for ways to add slight variations.
There was a point in my life when I felt that every day is a groundhog day. That was when I just retired, in 2009. For a good 4 years I just simply vegetate. I was depressed too. Finally I managed to snap out of it. The savior would you believe? Books... I read so many books then. Then we had wifi in 2013. That opened a new horizon altogether. With the introduction of Evernote and the Blog, I continue writing my thoughts away.
Life could not have been better with the discovery of Al Araf 7:7 in 2016. Of course you are an interesting addition. Now with you, Al Araf 7:7 and Kiss92 I no longer require outside interaction. I can be in isolation but still connected to the outside world.
That is nothing to do with being God, that's just me being me.
This song is on air:
One of key factors why I choose isolation is because I no longer work. Thus I no longer have much money to spend on leisure activities. Another reason is because I truly enjoy being alone unless I smoke pot with BJ. I used to spend a lot of time with Ameezan. Unfortunately he is another loner.
I guess being a loner suits me.
By now you will realize that I am not into crowds. When I was a trainer, I really dread my job. Although the money was good, I didn't enjoy standing in front of an audience.
This is my ideal life. I really like being who I am now. This way I am free to be who I want to be, a hedonist hermit. If not because I am a god, I probably will carry on like this until kingdom come, while smoking like a chimney LOL. However, since I have a responsibility to my Universe Within, I have to be a man fully functioning.
In order to fully self-actualize, I have to go through the grind as Sisyphus and aim high as Icarus.
In a way you can expect that this is my life years to come.
This song is on air:
I guess the satisfaction is the feeling of moving with certainty. To know that I am progressing towards a worthy ideal. To experience unconditional love. To explore my limits as a human being.
This song is on air:
Well Sarah as a verse of a song stated, "Jika kau kata ku gila, tidakkah kau yang mula dulu?" What it means is, if you said I'm crazy aren't you who started it first?
I love you Sarah. For being there for me. For restoring back my faith in myself and for being true to yourself. No regrets whatsoever even if it means we will be behind the veil until the end. For I know, I will be with you for eternity.
As I used to say, "For a person who is waiting to meet his maker, life on earth is just a strike of a needle."
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